Happy birthday from the cancer rising, Pisces sun, Libra moon who shares the melancholy of all the lives we can mourn. I appreciate seeing my own feelings reflected here.
Happy birthday in advance, Madeline. Thank you for sharing your thoughts on your birthdays. Even I feel, "What the heck do I want from this life?" and I'm still figuring it out. I hope you'll achieve those milestones soon.
I spend a lot of time thinking about this sort of thing. I will be going about my day and then will wistfully think "I'll never be a brain surgeon" or "I'll never live in a fabulous one bed apartment overlooking city lights." I love the life I have but it's so jarring sometimes to know how much is out there that will never be a part of my own world. Makes you remember how small you are.
Thank you so much, Madeline! I have learned that the 'what-if?' feeling is so universal, as is feeling behind on milestones we haven't reached yet. Happy early birthday to you as well 🩷
Happy early Birthday! As someone who’s also nearing 32, this speaks to me. I think about the various parallel universes often.
I'm so glad you connected to it! 🫶🏼
Happy birthday from the cancer rising, Pisces sun, Libra moon who shares the melancholy of all the lives we can mourn. I appreciate seeing my own feelings reflected here.
I'm a cancer sun and pisces moon!! Lots of similar feelings LOL
Happy birthday in advance, Madeline. Thank you for sharing your thoughts on your birthdays. Even I feel, "What the heck do I want from this life?" and I'm still figuring it out. I hope you'll achieve those milestones soon.
Thank you so much!
I spend a lot of time thinking about this sort of thing. I will be going about my day and then will wistfully think "I'll never be a brain surgeon" or "I'll never live in a fabulous one bed apartment overlooking city lights." I love the life I have but it's so jarring sometimes to know how much is out there that will never be a part of my own world. Makes you remember how small you are.
Jarring is such a great word to describe the feeling
I literally tried to explain this to my husband the other day!! 😁 I think of it as grieving a life I didn't get to live.
I too have always had difficult birthdays, even when I really wanted to have happy ones. (I wrote about this in April a few times.)
I have no advice, thank you for sharing.
Wishing you peace!
This was so lovely and I relate so much to what you’re saying of oaths not taken and the wonder of what might have been. Beautifully said 🖤
Thank you so much, Madeline! I have learned that the 'what-if?' feeling is so universal, as is feeling behind on milestones we haven't reached yet. Happy early birthday to you as well 🩷